Anne’s September Update and Musings So Much

So Much…. Now that’s a loaded title. So much….. what?

Well, this month I want to take you back to a movie from 1999, that for me is one of the most thought-provoking movies I know. American Beauty. If you’ve never seen it or don’t remember it, the movie is a psychological black-comedy about a man who is going through a mid-life crisis. But I would wager that it will touch on at least one of your phobias, pressure points or belief structures. I am not recommending you watch the movie, although you may enjoy it or learn something about yourself, if you do.

What I want to talk about is the So Much.

There is a short 3-minute part of the film where a young man in the story is showing one of his film clips to his soon-to-be girlfriend. I have the link to the clip at the end of this and I am recommending that you do watch it. Quietly and by yourself. And I recommend that you watch it before reading the rest of this.   

Because the So Much I’m talking about is in that clip. And because it was so beautifully written, I will share that here with you directly from the film, rather than paraphrasing this incredibly moving scene about a little plastic bag.

“It was one of those days where it’s a minute away from snowing. And there’s this electricity in the air. You can almost hear it. And this bag was just … dancing with me. Like a little kid begging me to play with it. For 15 minutes. That’s the day I realized that there’s this entire life behind things. And this incredibly benevolent force, who wanted me to know that there is no reason to be afraid…ever.

The video is a poor excuse, I know. But it helps me remember. I need to remember.   

Sometimes there’s so much Beauty in the world, I feel like I can’t take it. And my heart is just going to cave in.”

So much beauty. That’s what I have been connecting with all month. So much beauty. And the energy force behind that beauty that tells you, and shows you, that you never have to be afraid. Because when you are in that moment, and all you are doing is receiving beauty, the world is perfect. It’s just perfect.

At the end of the movie, the main character revisits the same scene with that little plastic bag, as he sums up the movie. And what I think is such an amazing way to live.

“It’s hard to stay mad when there’s so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I’m seeing it all at once, and it’s too much. My heart fills up like a balloon that’s about to burst.

And then I remember to relax… and stop trying to hold on to it. And then it flows through me like rain…. And I can’t feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life.

You have no idea what I’m talking about, I’m sure. But don’t worry. You will someday.”   

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V73598mBfKY 

I hope you receive all of the beauty that is here for you. Receive it and let it flow through you like rain.

Now, my final question. What was the first thing that came to your mind when you read the title, So Much….?

I hope it was something that you love.   

Love and Light,

Anne